I just got back from my cousin's wedding. I had a great time (which is a surprise because I usually have a horrible time due to listening to Charlie Bitch when we are doing family functions (his or mine)). I had time to think, pray and discuss my situation on the way up to Washington DC (where part of my family lives) and on the way home.
I have come to the realization that Charlie is Miserable with me, and he makes me miserable because of that. So I have decided to give him a divorce and be a single woman again. Please don't be sad or sorry about this. God is in complete control, I gave Him that control on Sunday June 29, after 38 years of Him trying to tell me, He can run my life better than I can, I relented and now I realize He is right. He can run it better and I am a passenger. I am happy, I am at peace, and I am enjoying the ride.
I know that the last 19 years (Charlie and I have been together that long) and the last 13 years of marriage have not been a total waste of time, I learned, I loved, and I had fun. It has prepared me for the future whatever that may be or hold, I am ready.
I may adopt a child or even visit a sperm bank, and carry a child to term, either way, I know I want to be a mother, and Charlie does not want kids at all, so I have to move on and be happy, and let him be happy.
I have come to the realization that Charlie is Miserable with me, and he makes me miserable because of that. So I have decided to give him a divorce and be a single woman again. Please don't be sad or sorry about this. God is in complete control, I gave Him that control on Sunday June 29, after 38 years of Him trying to tell me, He can run my life better than I can, I relented and now I realize He is right. He can run it better and I am a passenger. I am happy, I am at peace, and I am enjoying the ride.
I know that the last 19 years (Charlie and I have been together that long) and the last 13 years of marriage have not been a total waste of time, I learned, I loved, and I had fun. It has prepared me for the future whatever that may be or hold, I am ready.
I may adopt a child or even visit a sperm bank, and carry a child to term, either way, I know I want to be a mother, and Charlie does not want kids at all, so I have to move on and be happy, and let him be happy.
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