GOD is so Great!

Since all this drama has been going on with my soon to be ex (I just don't get him it's all about him, and everyone else can just go jump off a cliff). I have been relying on God to protect me and provide for me. And Boy has He ever, He is so great, He has His angels protecting me left and right. I need and He gives, I want and He gives. I am at peace and calm, I am full of JOY!!!

So there are a few things I need to survive... like food - God is controlling my appetite so I only eat for fuel, I am not overeating therefore I am not spending money on food I don't need or won't use. I need a roof over my head, God is helping me get a re-fi and bring my bills down. I need another income, God is sending work my way to help with that. I want an Invisible Fence for the dogs so I quit bothering my neighbors screaming for the dogs when they run off. So he provides for that (see below)... I ask, I receive, I knock and the doors have been opening. I love God so much, He is Awesome.

My best friend Melanie has moved here from GA., last year she went through a divorce and stayed with EX and me for a few months. I was happy to have her here and she help out with bills when needed and even bought us some appliances for letting her stay with us. Which was unnecessary, but that was her choice. I just loved having her here everyday. Anyway her mother and sister are visiting for the weekend, and Martha (Mel's Mom) took me aside and said that she and Gary (Mel's Dad) wanted to bless Me and EX (well not EX now) for taking in their daughter and helping her. I said that is not necessary, I did it cause I love her and was her friend. Martha said "We know that, but we want to bless you because of that love and generousity." So I said I wanted the Invisible Fence for the reasons above, and so I could bring them to Mel's house (she has an Invisible Fence too) and they could run and play outside. Martha said done, let me know the total and we will pay for it.

So here again, God is providing one of my requests that is not even a need, but a want, that I boldly went to the Throne and asked for, He is so Good.

Have God First, and then all your needs and wants will be meet through His timing and way. That is the way I am and will continue to live my life... with God in control and leading the way and me following.

Praise be to God Almighty and His Son The Precious Jesus Christ.

Reno, Nevada

So on Sunday July 20, 2008, my soon to be ex-husband boreded a plane headed toward Nevada. 12 hours later he left me a voice mail, that he was safe in Nevada, and things were well. I wish him the best, I hope all works out for him.

I am over it, I am full of joy, and I am getting healthier by the day. I dropped 250 lbs in 3 days, and I feel great... (Charlie was the 250 lbs., get it... HA HA) I actually have lost 8 lbs, my blood pressure was 118/82 today, and for the past 2 years it has run between 154 to 140/90 to 100. My seborrheic dermatitis is disappearing, and my heartburn is subsiding. I am full of joy and the Lord. He is in full control and I am enjoying the ride.

Vlad - Vanhorn Wedding: The Nineteenth day of July, 2008

My first wedding in two years (I have been avoiding taking brides), but now after this wedding I am ready to go back into this business. God not only is controlling my life, but he is in control of everything.

My friend Betsy, who has been in the wedding business for over 30 years as a director/planner, assisted on this wedding. She has helped me before, and I love working with her, cause she comes up with great poses, and changes things up so it's not the same old boring poses. She is also great in controlling the wedding party to get the pics done fast, but we have fun.

After the first half of shooting before the ceremony, we took a break, she looked at me and said, "Robin, I am so proud of you, today, you were relaxed, calm and having a good time. The last wedding we did together, you were mean, and angry when little things went wrong."

I said, "I know, I don't have Charlie making me miserable anymore, and God is in CONTROL, so I can't control anything, I just go with the flow, and it's a lot more fun and a lot easier."

The whole day was totally awesome.

He's almost gone

Well, these past three weeks have been a whirl wind. I have separated from my husband, took responsibility for myself, starting working on a plan to get a job to pay for myself and all my bills. Stood firmly on the my faith and trust in God to provide and lead me in His ways. Gotten my house and car from my soon to be ex. I am in the process of refinancing the house, paying off some bills, and putting out resumes. Trying to get my life, house and business organized all the while picking up the slack at my part time job where 4 people are gone on vacation. Whew, I need a vacation now. While all this is going on, I am working on separation papers, divorce papers, quit claim deeds and limited powers of attorneys. I see my soon to be ex now more than when we were married I think.

God can Heal all wounds

I just got back from my cousin's wedding. I had a great time (which is a surprise because I usually have a horrible time due to listening to Charlie Bitch when we are doing family functions (his or mine)). I had time to think, pray and discuss my situation on the way up to Washington DC (where part of my family lives) and on the way home.

I have come to the realization that Charlie is Miserable with me, and he makes me miserable because of that. So I have decided to give him a divorce and be a single woman again. Please don't be sad or sorry about this. God is in complete control, I gave Him that control on Sunday June 29, after 38 years of Him trying to tell me, He can run my life better than I can, I relented and now I realize He is right. He can run it better and I am a passenger. I am happy, I am at peace, and I am enjoying the ride.

I know that the last 19 years (Charlie and I have been together that long) and the last 13 years of marriage have not been a total waste of time, I learned, I loved, and I had fun. It has prepared me for the future whatever that may be or hold, I am ready.

I may adopt a child or even visit a sperm bank, and carry a child to term, either way, I know I want to be a mother, and Charlie does not want kids at all, so I have to move on and be happy, and let him be happy.